Teasapooh, try not to see this as a bad thing. Look at what you've accomplished with your willpower. YOU had the strength to tell the doctor of your symptoms. YOU had the strength to AGREE to a hospitalization. They can't force you unless she has proof that you'll cause harm onto yourself. If anything, you've shown that you have strength and want to get better. Hospitalizations aren't necessarily bad things.

Try to focus on yourself and getting well and I'm sure the experience will be worthwhile. I don't know if you want hugs so I'm sending hearts your way! <3333333333