I broke a pattern!! As some of you know, my marriage is not what I would call a marriage at all. I am the caregiver and he is the patient. Trying to restore this into what a marriage should be has been a challenge. My therapist has been trying to help learn to forgive myself and my spouse for the things we have done to hurt each other over the years. Not intentionally, but we have hurt each other.

Well, we made up! Yes, that sounds sappy, but we reconnected this week. It is a miracle!! I mean that. For some reason the boundaries are coming down. I am allowing him back into my life as a husband, not as a patient. I can see him as a man, not just as a quadriplegic.

This makes me cry to tell you this. My therapist has worked for a year to get me to this place. I sent her an email tonight to tell her what's going on. I wrote in the email, "I hope this makes you smile. It better! You have been nagging me for a year to get to this place!! I hope that you are happy!"

Yes, that does sound sarcastic, but she knows my personality. She will be overjoyed when she reads the email. Like my signature reads, "Therapy sucks and it is for the birds!!" But you know what? If you stay with it, and do the work, you can be successful and reach your goals! Thank God healing is on its way!

I feel like I have been through a horrific battle. I have been knocked down, beat up, slapped around, and felt like a bloody mess! But I am binding up my wounds, getting off my tail, and claiming a victory here! I am not totally 100% there, but I am miles away from what I was when I started.