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Originally Posted by treehouse
I think T is not talking to me. I am sure he is angry, and I would be too. I got REALLY REALLY triggered at the very end of session - like, more triggered than ever - and things completely unraveled I seriously seriously freaked out. And it was in the last two minutes of what had been a really vulnerable, connecting session. I feel sick.
I apologized. T e-mailed and said he could call me after a meeting tonight. It's my sons birthday so the timing was a little complicated. I told him that I didn't want him to call if he was still really angry. He e-mailed and said that maybe it would be better to talk in the morning and he might be able to call me at 10:30. At 10:30, I will be in a dr appt with my oldest son until 11:30 so I told him I couldn't talk then. I e-mailed and left a message and never heard back. I know T is done with me for the day, and I would be too.
I just keep taking klonopin. I'm going to stop now, but it's hard. The more numb I feel the better. 
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(((tree))) I hope you are resting/sleeping well.
I think T is talking to you, and doesn't seem to be hesitating to connect with you, but like you said it is complicated getting it arranged at this time. I think you and he will connect today (Friday) at some point. He now knows you're busy until 11:30. I hope you do get to talk to him because I think it will help ease your fear/anxiety.
This will get better.