when my meds balanced me out i told my T i was bored. with our highs, life can be exciting but in the end not helpful to us. too much drama, conflicting thoughts and poor decision making, etc. but i was accustomed to it, thus bored when all that balanced out. as i stayed "balanced" i found life was exciting enough. 
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