hi audrey

thanks for the support. i so tired to talk to him. i always believe that be an adult, but sometime i think i pamper him alot. i do not know, how can love so right, can be so wrong, where one party pump in alot of effort to stay in a relationship. i am tempted to asked him why he stay in this marriage. maybe i not ready to hear his answer but i do not want to throw 20 years of marriage down the drain. maybe i just plain stupid. holding to what i also do not know. i cannot say the children need him, all my children respect and love him but they never missed him. they treat his absence as bad working life cos i never make remark about his working life. he is one lucky guy.! i do not want to open the pendora box and get a wrong answer, i wish i can treat him with silent treatment but silence treatment is not an answer its just silence. i really burned out person need to be strong hopefully i be one.