It's a known fact between my mental health team and me that lack of sleep is a trigger and a cause of my depression and anxiety worsening. Normally I can control by putting my foot down and saying no to anything extra, at times when I'm lacking in sleep- as in no babysitting for friends, no going out on the weekend, etc. Or, I just take a "me" day and sleep off and on all day to catch up.

However, now I have a baby growing inside of me and he is kicking me so hard at night that I wake up. Last night it was every 45 minutes, with him either kicking my tailbone (ouch!) or kicking my bladder (have to potty!). It would take a little while to fall back asleep and then I'd get about 15 minutes of sleep before he was at it again. As you can imagine, that makes for a very tired person today!

Add to that, my mom's cancer is getting worse, her body is just not handling the treatment and she called me this morning crying because her chest hurt so bad. She went to the doctor, she has pleurisy and I read some about this and it is scaring the dickens out of me. So now I am both physically and mentally/emotionally exhausted.

Long story short (ha! too late)... the fingers of depression are gripping tighter and tighter. Sigh.