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Old Jun 10, 2011, 04:22 PM
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Originally Posted by ScooterBug View Post

I do know of some girls that are BP and have either bulimia or anorexia because they feel like since something is wrong mentally, they need to outshine with their slim bodies. (which also goes hand in hand with the hypersexuality) ...

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Hello ScooterBug,

I'm one of these girls...when I am hypomanic I follow a strict diet and exercise daily to lose weight, I can lose 10kg in 3 months without effort (I mean, without feeling any effort). In the meanwhile, I'm hipersexual, and it's also a bit embarassing to me, because I find out myself always flirting with boys, always, in any kind of circumstance and especially with people I slightly know. During these periods, which last max 4 months, I just want to be skinny, perfect, and go to bed with anyone, it doesn't matter who, what matters is charming them and let them desire me.
Afterwards, I suddenly stop to be interested in sex and start to binge, because I'm feeling down and at the same time I'm not interested in going to bed with anyone....
In this period I'm just studying, dieting and isolating...I don't feel any interest towards the outer world, because I almost have no emotions...no pain, no pleasure, just anxiety, which I dominate through diet and study and good marks....I don't know how long it will last before I get depressed again....now it seems to me I will be like that forever (I'm feeling very good and in control, despite isolating and spending my days in front of a book)....