I work at a hospital, so I understand where you're coming from--it's a really difficult for me to wrap my head around emotionally as well since I have confusions with religion and one of my biggest fears is death--there is so much uncertainty.

So if I had an answer, I would give it to you--but I don't. Every person is different and same goes to their views and thoughts on afterlife and death. I'm still trying to figure that out myself. I wish you luck on your ponderings. (((pegasus)))