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Jun 10, 2011, 11:19 PM
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Sinking, and drowning is the only way to describe it. Panic, terror, not remembering what I need to and remembering stuff that hurts too much to bear. I guess it's possible to have both DID and MDD but when one overshadows the other and life gets so dark and threatening, where can I go? Where is there to hide?
I begged our T to help us today. I never begged anyone for anything before.I begged him not to let us die. This has gone on for too long...constant terror, sadness, obsessions along with no sleep unless medicated. I can't live through this. I don't understand if this is an alter experiencing the depression; but it feels like most inside are. Others are hiding. I don't know where. I wish I could find a safe place to hide also.
Please think of me and maybe say a prayer or what ever you do cause I feel like I'm dying.
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