You all are so sweet, I so appreciate you all. I had me a good cry this morning and will probably cry more as I get through this. A friend sent me a post of good jokes and I actually laughed, so I'm maintaining.

I would like to state for the record though, ladies and gentlemen, that this sucks. I think I need a doggie toy to bite (preferably unused).

Pat, let's do that, double wedding! We'll find us some honest real nice men people.

I might try purposefully listening to love songs, or would that be too indulgent? I'm debating over whether to tell the guy, my guess is that he already knows, I don't think I will bring it up for now. Naturally he is continuing to be a real nice intelligent skilled guy with a sense of humor and all the rest that I want....while being married. So, no flirting at him, I'll take to flirting with trees.

Sarah