treehouse,

i'm just catching up on your posts now. i'm so glad you shared a little bit of what happened, that took a TON of courage and honesty.

it's interesting to me because in my last session, i was talking about an incident where i was sexually assulted (when i was like 16). my therapist responded by saying, and i quote, "people like that prey on people who leave themselves open to it." i was totally floored, but did nothing. in fact, i continued with what i was talking about, managed to steer the conversation in a different direction, and brushed it off completely. i have such a great relationship with my therapist. i love, respect, and adore her, and i'm incredibly grateful for all we've accomplished together. but man, am i still trying to understand what the hell she meant with her comment.

i guess this is my long way of telling you that i think it's really good (and healthy!) that you were able to get angry at your therapist (for something similar, i think). i think the anger piece of it is worth exploring in future sessions. i'd say the anger is a reaction to feeling abused (in a way, that's what your therapist did by implying it was your fault) and you reacted by lashing out. that's quite a change from how you reacted to your mom's abuse. idk, but that's what came to mind when i read your post.

take care, and hang in there. and "be gentle with yourself!"