I understand what you and your husband are going though, because I went through this in 2007. My wife did very close to the same thing, at the same age as you, and when our children were almost the same age. Her credit card bill was closer to $18K.

The thing that helped us the most was a visit to our priest, a dear old fellow who recognized the tortured pain and guilt my wife felt and what you feel now. It was he who started the chain of events that lead to the diagnosis and treatment for BPD. I pray for your family and the hardships you are about to face. It is going to get worse before it gets better. But it WILL get better. I repeat: IT WILL GET BETTER. Yes, we are still married and we do still have our problems. But it does get better.

As important as it is for you to get the care you need, your husband must seek coucelling. He will need help coming to terms that it was the BPD and not you that did this, and he cannot do it alone. He has been dealt a horrible blow by a disease he may know nothing about, so he must also learn about BPD so as to help you fight the "bi-polar bear", as we call it in our house. It took me a long time and many horrible fights before I came to terms that BPD is no different than diabetes or any other disease, except that it effects the mind, not the body.

The Bipolar bear is invisible and hunts in the darkness of your mind. He can cause you horrible pain in your life and is a formadible opponent. But a team approach with you, your husband, doctors, modern medicine, and God can beat him! We will be praying for you.