@SoupDragon:
This has been going on, on and off since I was 13 years old. I'm now 21. My school counselor suggested I go for the meds, we tried everything else.... I'm just still so uncertain! I'm just wondering if I haven't been totally honest with my counselor, or maybe I didn't try hard enough or something, I dunno

Thank you Leo! I guess because I CAN interact when I need to, i'm debating.
I'mn a fairly decent public speaker-> but everything just seems so bland. Life just seems too bland... The only reason I do anything is because I have specific goals If I didn't, I wouldn't get up in the morning. I use that as motivation to do anything. It's the only thing I have.