I don't ever feel like going out... and I feel totally isolated from my friends.
When I go out with them, I just sit completely in silence until someone asks if I'm awake and alive.
Life just seems too bland..

Ah, Crash&Burn - but the feelings I've pulled from your posts tell me that you want more than to just interact during the times when you have to, to meet your goals.

I can always put on a happy face and speak to the topic when required at work. But school and work aren't what gives us a complete life. We need/want to interact with our friends and family - and that is where taking the anti-depressants has helped me. It sounds as though you have tried many non-med approaches and it isn't working. The combo of meds and therapy just might help you move forward and have more happiness in your life.

It isn't an easy decision to make I know. But I will never go off meds now that I know how it has helped me. I equate my anti-depressant to the insulin that diabetics use in order to carry on in life, or to the anti-rejection med my hub has to take to keep his transplanted liver functioning.

Just mentioned those things in case you might feel there is a stigma about taking an anti-depressant...