I can't put myself in a position where people could know about this... because in my career, if people lose confidence in me, people WILL die.
I'm doing medicine. And to be honest, I just want to graduate.
If I didn't want this all my life, I'd be done. I'd be in bed, perpetually. I know that.
No one really cares about me. I'm easily forgotten.
If I die, people will mourn for a few days maybe... And then life goes on. I haven't made a lasting impression on anyone, and I never will.
People can NOT hear from me for months on end, and it won't bother them. It bothers me :P but not them.