I don't know why your depression has become worse recently but I sympathize. And unfortunately I can relate as well. I agree with Direction that a lot of us are uncomfortable with emotions or showing them. It can be scary. I don't think you need to apologize for what happened. I had therapy at a family service center long ago. The doctors did 6 moth stints there before going on to private practice. As one of my doctors was nearing the end of her 6 months we were talking about our time together. She mentioned that both she and my previous doc had tried to make me angry as part of therapy. I tell that story here because it's possible that your therapist wanted to provoke an emotion. I don't know that's what happened of course but just mentioning it as a possibility. And sometimes emotions just come out as part of therapy I suppose. I don't think it's something you need to regret or feel embarrassed about. Hope you start to feel better very soon.