(((((Stuck and Confused))))))

Sorry it took me a little while to get back to you. I have 3 kids of my own.....kids! 3 months is pretty good. I am on day 4. The one thing that will help me get back into T, which in my rational mind I know I really need, is that I will be able to talk with MFT about mourning T and I do think that will help. No one(probably including him) understands this but my T did get me in the end and that was very very healing.
I am concerned they are in the same building but it is a reduced fee clinic and we need that advantage. Plus, I am very reluctant to continue at all.........I know for a fact I would not continue if it was with someone totally brand new. MFT will not have a clock ticking over my head.......I can come in for up to a year if I want. There is a small chance I could work with T in the fall. Don't know if I would(since it would involve limited sessions up front). A lot depends on if I feel I still need it, how well I have bonded with MFT, etc.
I am very fearful about transference feelings with my MFT. Both my husband and T think it will help. Other posters have told me I may need this to heal. I don't mind going through it again, but it is the pain at the end that is consuming me that I don't want to experience again. Will I always need another T to mourn the last one? I just comfort myself with the hope that once I am closer to being better, that it will be sad but not debilitating. Anyway, have a good Sunday.
sg