So far I've ended up listening to music, trying to pick a movie to watch (I'm going with Superbad), journaling, and crying my eyes out...

I definitely think I need a meds tweak...I am not doing well at all...haven't really been for a bit...

Anika - Honestly, the only reason I've been worried about finding a job is because I want money. I don't need it per say (unless I want to have a life and be able to go to movies and stuff with friends)...but I like having it. I also feel obligated to have a job because I had one, but told them a couple weeks ago that I couldn't do it (which I know I couldn't considering my previous and current status since it would include being away from home in a place I've never been with people I don't know for 9 weeks, not in therapy, and not at all close to my pdoc...not a good situation)...Plus, my parents have a rule about summer...after you turn 18 you have to do "something productive" with your summer i.e. take a class, work or volunteer so...I have to do something. If I had enough hours, one job would be okay, but with the job I just got I was told that there's no guarantee about hours...and to please my mother, I have to work at least 20 hours/week, and she would prefer me working more...around 30-35 hours/week. I'm only interested in 20-25 hours/week since I don't know if I could handle more than that right now, so we'll see.