Hi everyone I would just like some feedback hopefully insight so I'd really appreciate a listening ear.

I've been depressed for about the last 7 years, sometimes more intensely than others but now that its summer, I don't have school. I do have a part time job doing research at the university. But over last few summers is when all my suicide attempts happen. My most recent one was last summer which ended me in the ICU for about 4 days. It wasn't pretty.

My girlfriend went to home to visit her family. She'll be back in a month. I guess I'm kind of lonely without her. We still talk everyday but its quite expensive cause her familys from a different country.

I don't want to worry my parents. I've put them through enough stress. Not to mention my brother getting arrested and may be charged with a felony. I don't want them to stress out, so when I talk to them I tell them everything is going good.

I just don't know what to do with myself. I don't feel like my life has any meaning. I don't know where its heading in the future. I'm getting more and more depressed everyday. I am seeing a psychiatrist which I've been seeing for almost twice a week for the last year or two. I just don't feel like its helping me much right now. I'm becoming so hopeless and I'm afraid I may hurt myself again. Since my pattern, has been suicide attempts only in the summer time.

I honestly am lost and I dont know what to do. Can I get some feed back ASAP please... Thank you