I use to have this best friend where he was my main support for those years. We did everything together, guided one another in our lives and we had the best of times and just having fun what friends should be doing together. Over time he began to have feelings for me and even though we were the best of friends I couldn't have the same feelings. I couldn't ever see myself with him in that way and I was very honest with him from the very beginning. We decided to stay friends.

I found myself being taken advantaged by him after a night of too much drinking and the next morning I felt he had betrayed me in every way. This isn't the first time that he stayed the night when I had too much to drink. Thats what friends do for one another and we would look out for one another especially when one had too much to drink. This time after years of friendship I found out that he took advantage of me. I hate him and I still do. I told him to never contact me ever again and that was about 3 yrs ago.

For those 3 yrs things were going well and suddenly this year he dares email me to wish me a happy bday. Suddenly I'm remembering all those shameful feelings and the hate that I have for him.

Why did he have to contact me, I just want to move on with my life. Things were going well... How do I cope?