Hi again C&B - the only place that feels safe to be for me is at work - although I do not feel I am functioning optimally there, it is at least something I can focus on to some extent and as no-one there knows how I feel inside, I can sort of escape things for a while and pretend that things are different. Right now I'd give anything not to have to go to work this week, I am so tired and would love to just spend time in bed, but I know if I give in and do that, it will be so hard to ever get out of bed again and go into work. Also once I have been open with myboss etc. about my struggle, there will no longer be a need to hide it and I think that would given me the excuse to take more time off and lead to a downward spiral. Although it is hard, I do think we need to push on with daily life wherever possible. I too feel I am easliy forgotton, people may be sad for a while, ask themselves why they didn't do more, why they didn't notice, but life does nove on doesn't it? So for me it is not so much others that keep me going, but having a responsibility to my self and faith that things will get better. I bought 5 ducklings 2 weeks ago - they are really cute and at the moment a real reason to get out of bed as I feel responsible for them. Sometimes I wish I hadn't got them, particularly when I am feeling so tired, but I know they are good for me.

You suggest that your symptoms aren't severe - how severe would they need to be for you to re-evaluate this? Also what are the pros and cons for you about taking meds?