Welcome hcrichto I know it's hard to reach out for professional help. My mom has BP too and I didn't seek professional help until my symptoms were so bad I couldn't ignore them. Waiting to get help nearly caused the loss of my life.

I would suggest seeing your GP and ask for a full physical exam, including blood work because there are some medical conditions that can mimic mental illness. While at this appointment request a referral to see a Psychiatrist. I would also suggest tracking your mood. I use this one online: http://www.medhelp.org/land/mood-tracker I know it's hard to ask for help, but you don't need to suffer in silence.