I feel bad about having so many filters, I feel ashamed when something somebody says, or the tone they say it in causes this little broken part to want to hide, I have to hide allot, its tiring, but I still would not want someone to feel that kind of hurt from me, so I guess I just get confused, is it again just me be overly sensitive due to the children's filters put in place where I had to adapt to the harshness of indifference and pain in childhood, so I have extra sensitive feelers in place like radar.