Thank-you Direction - yes it doesn't feel that way right now - I am so tired of it and the closer my session is, the more agitated or is it anxious, I am feeling. Part of me is wanting to e-mail my T to say I can't come, but I have been there before with this ambivalence - it drives me insane - I just don't think I can afford to go and come out feeling any worse than I do now - so I think just now in the short term it certainly doesn't feel helpful.