I don't know if I can stop - when I get really upset and depressed, and feeling like an utter failure, I sometimes turn to hitting myself, and lately it's been really bad. I know it hurts my boyfriend to see me do it, and he just gets so frustrated because he wants to be able to help but he doesn't know how.

Well, last night I woke up to find him looking at me... we got to talking, he was so angry that I'd hit myself earlier, and he told me that he feels like he might need to break up if I keep doing it. I don't know what to do, I don't know that I *can* stop... I'm really scared of losing him... in almost 4 years together, we've never had to contemplate breaking up!