I can't put myself in a position where people could know about this... because in my career, if people lose confidence in me, people WILL die.
I'm doing medicine. And to be honest, I just want to graduate.

Ok, just my humble opinion, but if you're in medicine then you have a wonderful opportunity to be a positive spokesperson for mental health issues. Personally, if you were taking care of me, but weren't taking care of yourself by using all avenues available to you - including meds - I think I would be scared to be under your care.

But in reading your posts, I really get the impression that you want to be in denial and want to battle back against any suggestions that include looking into/exploring the idea/trying/...meds to help you.

So, I will stop commenting and just wish you the best.