most people wish there T was a friend or something.i found myself wishing a coworker was my T
. anyone ever experience this .
i have been thinking a lot about the posts and comments about getting your needs met bye your T. if it is good to have your T try to meet some of your needs
as i think most of you know i have had an awful time at work and how i have been so out of control.i am crying every day and having huge tantrums.one person who has been so helpful has been my ESR employee services rep.she has really been taking care of me big time and standing up fpr me speaking for me to the other Mgr and has told me that she is feeling that she needs to protect me she is really helping me feel safe at work some the other day she said she is waiting for me to talk to her about what is going on so she can do something about it
she said that these people don't scare her at all and all i need to do is talk to her and she will take care of the rest.
now i started thinking i wish that she was my T.but i don't know if this is good or not.my T's response to what little she knows about my stuff at work is that i need to act like and adult and that she will be on vacation the next week.with her being gone i am being forced to get my need elsewhere but i don't know if this is healthy or not.i mean i like that this person feels like she needs to protect me and is really helping me be OK at work and is essentially taking care of me these days.is this healthy.
i think my behavior at work has gotten even worse .i am even wondering if my inability to keep things under control is made worse because i am mad that my T has gone on vacation when i need her here so badly to help me deal with things that are going on with me.i don't know all i know is i am so totally out of control it is turning the work place upside down and i just want to crawl up in a hole and die.i worry that when my T gets back to work she will decide i need a break and ask if i will go in the hosp or something and i think my husband will agree.so in the end i really wish right now the ESR Ware i work was my T at least she is there for me somewhat