I am so sorry that you have made this decision. Sometimes we are in a position, for a period of time, that we are unable to give support but need to recieve it. That is all right. Luckily with a site this big there are some that ,at any one time, are capable of giving for those that need support. Don't worry that right now you need the support.

It sounds like you would like to change some things in your life, and while I certainly don't know your specifics, but maybe some professional help may let you see the good in your life too. I am sorry that you seem to be so sad at this time. I hope you find the help you need and start the healing process. Good luck and I hope you decide to stay.