Thank you..just letting it evolve..just is so hard isn't it, when your used to trying to keep it under control, I fight this so much in my therapy, its a tug of war, but I am starting to win a few battles..smile..just confuses the heck out of myself at times, it feels lke I am reading someone elses journal or photo album thru parts of this, trying to except the process, but with support I that is we, that hopes to be me one day, trudges onward thru the muck and mire. Please forgive my sense of wording at times I am just not all here, and it can get iffy.or wierd..