Why! Why life? Why the hell is my life like this? Why the fk do I have a stalker? Why the fk does she pretend to be people just to mess with me just to "See how far she can go?" I'M SO ****ING TIRED OF IT! People call me pathetic when i think she's following me "oh god ur not that special, she's not following u, ur nothing otbe obessed over" yeah. sure im not. but she pretends to be a guy i liked and goes out with me. Yeah that's not obssesed at ALL. Its so painfully clear who she is, the personality shines through, the way she types, the people she's friends with. Yeah. I'm not good enough for a stalker, but i'm good enough to have someone pretend to like me to go out with me, but it's a chick and my ex best friend.

NO IT'S NOT A DUDE OR A STRANGER IT'S MY EX BEST FKING FRIEND.

like for fks sake. i feel so paranoid i mean there's a 1% chance he is who he says he is. But yeah 99% we're playing pretend. I hate this chick, she's a sick, fking monster and i regret ever knowing her..

on the other hand i just so pray it's not her.. i feel insane and crazy and scared and paranoid.. but.. i don't want this truth. i DON'T WANT TO BE STALKED. I don't want the conclusion that i have a sociopath running after me enjoying ever time i cry or am hurt.. this crush thing, pretending to be this guy.. this is just going too far.. it's been 4 years. same girl, same games, same hurt and same story over and over again.. i'm so upset, but not with myself.. when the hell is this game going to end. ignoring her, yeah does nothing. she just comes back as someone new.