it has been three days that the thought to cut has been in my head, and tonight i succumed to it. i have recently moved to college and started another postgraduate degree and on thursday we had our orientation. sitting in the lecture theatre was bad enough then the lecturer said to talk to the people next to us about some thing. and suddenly the noise, ahhh it was so horrid, i could'nt breathe i couldn't speak. it was all i could do to remain in my seat. and here at college, i cant leave my room when there are people around, so noisy so frightenin.
i think moving into college was a bad idea, but now i'm stuck here and i cant sleep and all i think about is cutting, i have nowhere to turn.