I understand where you're coming from... I too, can't stand summers. I lose all the structure and safety of school routines. I thrive on the routine that school provides, and while my T has suggested that I create my own "summer routine" it just isn't the same. I also keep my parents pretty much in the dark - it is not the best thing to do, but they have some major issues of their own, and have never really been supportive, so it's just better for everyone this way.

This summer I'm working really hard not to fall into the SU mode and let my depression take over. I've planned a trip to visit a friend out of state, volunteered to coach a local summer league, and am in process of making plans with a neighbor to walk a few times a week. This, along with seeing my T three times a week, should fill my days enough so that I can't spiral out of control like I have in the past.

Can you find something to volunteer to do over the summer? Like a sport, or a camp, or even your local library? Something that gives you a little structure for the summer that is managed by someone else (I can't manage my own structure well, I need to have someone to report to, like the head coach, a neighbor, and a friend.) Is there a summer project that you can do? Something that will take a few hours a day, a few days a week?

Good luck, summers suck, but my T assures me that they don't have to, and one day, they will actually be enjoyable!