thanks for the reply, its just a very new thing, i guess i've always been shy, but at the moment my sense of self worth is pretty low, so its probly tied to that somehow. yes i do leave the college, (thats where i live) but only to go somewhere i must like the store or social security, it the whole put on a happy face thing, or somewhere i know no-one is going to be looking at me or will feel compelled to talk to me