Well, I did something out of character this weekend. I went shopping for toys for ME.

Having been prompted by T to try different methods of cracking open my hardened exterior, I thought I would attempt to take her ideas further at home. I'm going to be trying a personal experiment.

I bought some figurines that represent different aspects of myself. It's so weird to be in a toy store shopping for myself instead of my grandsons. And, I even wondered if I should share my figurines with them when they come to visit and I've decided that I should not - at least not yet.

Before I see T this week, I want to 'play' with them a lot and see how much I can learn. Already, I have gotten a tremendous insight about my situation just by externalizing my interior self. It's amazing how powerful a shift in vision can be. I can hardly believe it.

If I bring my 'toys' in to T, she is going to be flabbergasted. I'm flabbergasted myself. I would never have expected that I would do such a thing because it seems so nonsensical. I will love to see the shock (and delight) on her face.