I don't know. I just feel like I'm portraying something I'm not...but at least for now I'm keeping up with the charade.

Tomorrow and Tuesday will be vital days to keep up the charade. I have orientation at one job tomorrow (I was just hired as a hostess at Applebees, and it was on the spot, probably due to my bubbly and outgoing persona even though I felt like absolute crap that day)...and Tuesday I have my final interview for another job (sales rep for AT&T, so being friendly and outgoing and confident is key)...