Tried to be a nice person all my life.
I know I should look at things in shades of grey, but I think this world and people are plain evil.
Kind of think oblivion would be better. Kind of thinking that it would be better if emergence and evolution never existed; consciousness is so crappy.

Don't get me wrong, their are a lot of nice people and beautiful things in this world.

Just tired of humans and existence.

I don't even feel sadness anymore. And pity sucks.

Ah well, i'll continue to help when I can/when i'm asked, not eat animals, etc

And today I partially remembered a memory my mind has been hiding, but it went away. I usually only remember this during my night terrors/near-sleep state flashbacks, but now I get hints of information before and after periods of disassociation. I don't know.

I'm a cynical *** aren't I? lol