hey tree, just remember feelings are information, not emergencies. just keep taking one little baby turtle step after another and you'll work your way through this. i once asked t why therapy never seems to get easier and his answer was along the lines of how as we grow stronger in our self, we can face harder things. the fact that you've reached such a difficult stage of therapy is a testament to how much you've grown. you'll make it through this - just one baby turtle step at a time.