[quote=crash&burn;1893226]@Soup: I AGREE. If I relax, I feel like I'll fall apart.
What about you?

Yes I probably think the same. Although I did a minfulness course last year and that was about relaxing a little and I don't recall faling apart then. I just wish I could get my head in the same space again now. I am really thinking seriously about going to my GP this week, then just when I decide yes that is what I'm going to do - my head gets into a spiral of, What will she ask (couldn't possibly share the SI with her), what will she think, will she think I am an unsafe mum, will she get social servies involved, will she sign me unfit for work, what will she prescribe etc... - and so the anxiety sets in - I am going to try really hard to talk about this with my T tomorrow.

Actually I always make myself smile when I say "try". I went on a course once where we were exploring trying. The course leader asked us to stand up and "try" to lift our arms up - you should "try" doing it - it highlighted that really there is not such thing as "trying", it all boils down to either you can or you can't, will or won't - a bit harsh really as I am really "trying" to get myself out of this - but it is always a point for reflection for me.