((((((((PC)))))))))

I went up to read last night and pretty much passed out, which was a relief.

Now it's today. I see T on Wednesday

I'm just going to try to stay busy and not isolate, which sounds hard.

My SOUL hurts, and I am so ashamed about session. I have read every. single. wise word that has been posted here, and I want to let it sink it, but it's hard.

I have such a good relationship with T, and I don't want some stupid hurt feral child part of me to come along and ruin it. I don't want her big big feelings.

Sometimes when the CSA stuff comes up for me, I have an almost irresistable urge to kick and kick and kick.