I don't get panic attacks very often. But when I do, they come one after another after another. At one point several months ago, I had several within an hour, lasting about 5 minutes each.

So, I'm stressed to the MAX and am in the middle of a storm of panic attacks:
1) I've been trying to pay a student loan bill for the last 3 weeks. The first time, I messed up on the routing number. Called the next day and they told me to call in a week. I did. Gave them the correct number. They credited my account. Still has yet to show up in my bank account. I get a letter stating that if I don't pay it within a week, it's going to collections... called them today... it got crossed in the mail after I made my payment. Still stressed about it even though I know I should not be.
2) I got took for $257 in fake checks yesterday at work. Nothing I can do about it. I did what I was supposed to do. The manager even got fooled. I'm not going to get in trouble for it, but it still bothers me and my mind is obessing over it. My dreams were nothing but that. Stressed out about it even though I know the worse thing that is going to happen is that I'm going to have to talk to my boss and loss prevention.
3) I have a dentist appointment tomorrow. I have to get a cavity filled. My worst fear on this earth is needles. There's no drilling without numbing my gum. They numb the gum with a needle. Never mind the $500 bill (I don't have dental insurance)... And they don't believing in laughing gas or anything like that.
4) I'm getting married July 7th. I have NO CLUE why that's upsetting me because I have lived with the best guy for the last 3 years! Yet, my mind is obessing over it and it is driving me nuts!

It is driving me nuts that I am so anxious over this all even though, I know logically there's nothing to be upset about. It's like the rational side of me is trying to reassure the irrational side of me that everything is going to be alright. However, the irrational side of me is throwing a fit like a kid not getting his own way. Within the last few days, I've had moments of pure panic, where I cannot function. I have a HUGE stress headache--afraid to take something for it since I get migraines and do not want a rebound headache.

Grrrrr...I just wish my irrational side would listen to my rational side and pipe down...I like to be able to function...

The only upside to all of this anxiety: I'm getting extra lovings from my three cats. Love my NIna, Mooch and Patches!

--Beth