I didn't cut. I didn't. I... sort of scrathed a little. There was no blood, so I don't want it to count. Because then I don't have to tell my boyfriend. He says he wants to know when I do, but then he is upset and hurt about it and I just don't want that. He got upset when I didn't tell him right away last time. It doesn't count though... Ugh. I didn't cut. I wanted to but I didn't. Doesn't that mean anything?
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She wishes things were different, but the wishes don't mean anything.
I am trying to hear myself think here But all I can feel is the pain.
I just want to curl up and stop my aching heart .
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