Thank you Sky, Faye, Greenleaves and Lexicon for your empathy and your willingness to try to understand what I was inadequately trying to convey. Septembermorn and Sleeps, I’m sorry I wasn’t able to convey it to you. I could try to answer every point you made, but I don’t feel there is any point in prolonging the discussion; it clearly polarizes opinions and I don’t want to do that. I would like to make the point that I wasn’t trying to say that my feelings were right, and I recognize that they are feelings not facts; I was trying to explain those feelings in the hope of understanding, for I don’t believe people here WANT to hurt others any more than I have ever wanted to hurt others in my posts or pms.. I thought in explaining some of my hurt it might help others in their clearly genuine desire to support.
So be it. I have decided I need to take a break from here, for the sake of my mental health. At the moment I am clearly not balanced or rational enough to be here. I have put my email in my profile in case there is anyone who wants to keep in touch. Thank you to all those of you who have offered me support. I have tried to be supportive in return. I will miss many of you.