I know I don't read post tbh, mainly lurk. Apologies if its in the wrong section too. Just need a little advice.

Me, main issue as I see it is depression and SI, being seeing my T for the past year for help with it.

My T's always said that if i'm struggling then to contact him, usually I don't, I try and ride it out but just this time in particular i've tried everything to get away from this feeling and its got no better. I'm currently not seeing my T due to being away atm, haven't done for a few weeks and I won't be most likely til July, I was doing well and I don't know what happened from Fri onwards, it just went downhill and now its affecting me daily.

Is it worth trying to contact my T tomorrow?

I know the obvious answer would be yes. My real question is as a result of even contacting my T tomorrow? What can he even do?

Like I don't wanna cause a bother/waste his time along with having a slightly awkward conversation..which kinda wouldn't help, but my point is I just don't see the point of contacting him but at the same time i'm struggling..

Any replies would be appreciated and apologies in advance for any incoherency.