good day all.
i have been talking to a man i met in 2008 when i was in Germany visiting my mom, and we did lose contact but am now talking again. i did not date him, i was dating another man at the time. we were just friends then and now i think i may be having more feelings about him, he tells me i misses me and wants me to come see him, and i do. im just torn because i have school to finish hier and i told him that i am panning to come for the Oktoberfest this year and would like to see him then. but im afraid i may fall for him and now its safe because im not actually there. idk i just needed to vent about this, its a bit stressful, its bad enough my mom is living in Hannover still and now with my friend there (he is actually from Berlin) its even more tempting to just book a one way ticket and tell my dad im leaving. but i have my life hier too and ach im just frustrated now.

i no what is right and logical to do, i mean im German its in my genes to be logical isnt it? but why do i have these awkward feelings i cant seem to avoid? i dont expect much reply just needed to vent, its ok if you dont have advice for me, just wanted to write it out.

thanks
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