I got some bad news about an hr or so ago. It hurt me. I didn't want to believe it.
I cried and cried...was so tense. I wanted to throw up. Was thinking of cutting myself but I went to take a bath instead. Cried some more there but I kinda calmed myself down.

Basically, I thought I was having a good day. Hell, I was having a couple of weeks. But then, in talking with my bf, he tells me that he wants me to leave him alone. We were fine these couple weeks. Even this morning was great. Then he tells me this. Long story short, he had to deal with my moods/anger a couple months before....which did last for a long time. I would calm down but then lash out again. When I was in my monster mood, I'd become a jealous jerk. Yes, I put him thru hell but I've been doing my techniques that I've been taught. We had it good these couple of weeks. We talked like before. We were affectionate and all that. I was calm and cool and happy...which to me was the most important. I was happy again and feeling stronger that I can pull out of this because I have him. I know that I put him thru hell...that I was not well and I'm sorry from the bottom of my heart that I did that to him. He didn't deserve it at all. It's because of him that I am how I am now...

Anyways, usually when I hear something I do not like, I tend to overthink things and blow things up.
As much as the news hurt me, I was able to calm myself and think logically. He had been thru much crap with me. And recently lost his job and hadn't been sleeping well. I know that he loves me and this is just a thing since he got put into a bad mood today because of said events.

Gah...this is all over the place. I guess what I'm asking is what am I to do? Is it wrong for me to believe that he's down and said that and not mean it? Should I wait?

I don't expect any answers quite honestly. Just wanted to get this off my chest. Though, any advice is much appreciated.