Thanks for replying,
Rhiannonsmoon, lol, i agree and that is the logical thing to do, to stay here and finish, i have 3 semesters left...possibly.

Sunrise, i have a great relationship with my dad, he is a good drinking buddy and im more a daddys little girl then a mommys for obvious reasons. my dad is my best friend, and he respects my opinion of wanting to gp back and see my mom. he is remarried now, to my step mom, but he still respects my mom in Germany, that is why i love him. i am doing good in school, made deans list last year 3,75 GPA. with that 8 week genetics class im surpised i did so well, lol. and ya i do plan to move back to Germany at some point, but i didnt think after chatting with my friend i would start to want more for him. i want to be there for him. but i never thought we would even try to make this work. i planned to stay here in the states, teach German, maybe find a man here, later of course and move back to Germany long time from now... i dont do well with change lol, i have a plan and dont like it interrupted ach. when i mean safe, sunrise, i mean just chatting with him is easier on me then being there psychically with him and wanting to make love to him, then i would have too many feelings then.. ya no good, chatting like this, protects me from what i could really feel if i was there in his arms.

Vampyre, thanks, im glad to no im not alone, and maybe he would come hier but his circumstances in Berlin i dk... it will work out... and good luck to your situation.

sorry for such long response, hope i cleared up some things.

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