I had my appt with T today. What I had to talk about was very uncomfortable for me. On the good side of all this I'm able to talk about what's bothering me with a much greater ease than ever before: I'm able to connect to my feelings with words to explain them.

My T gave me a homework assignment and I'm feeling rather anxious about it. I won't go into details but I have to do this assignment before my next appt is in three weeks!! Stupid me at the time had the option to make an appt to see her next week!!! I thought to myself I can be strong and wait for three weeks (she's going away in a couple of weeks). I feel like I'm going to die if I have to wait three weeks with this anxious feeling of my homework and all that it brings up for me (we did discuss my anxious feelings about this in my appt today). I want to be done with my 'homework' assignment already and get it over with. The anticipation is stressing me out and then to have to wait three weeks to talk about it isn't going to work for me.

I just sent T an email asking if I could have an appt with her next Tuesday. Please keep your fingers and toes crossed for me that I can get an appt with her!!! If I have to wait three weeks this is so going to suck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!