Well Solutioninprocess,
You dont have much on your about me page and I don't know how old you are or even your male or female.

So in general it sounds like you have a lot of changes happening all at once and your not finished with the process period. You have a lot to process yet and losing a parent is a lot. It really sounds like you are losing a lot of things all at once along with your confidence in who you are.

But that happens to many people, sometimes it can come all at once, one of my constant questions has been, "Why does everything happen all at once?" It seems that no matter how I try to space something out, it all comes at once. But it is not the end.

If you do lose your jobs you can collect unemployment I think depending on where you are. But you may find a better job and an opportunity may just be on the horizon. Thats the thing about life, something can pop up and you look back and say, well, if I hadn't lost that job or that housing etc. I would have never met my new best friend or found this really good job or maybe a mate for life.

You do have school to look forward to in the fall and summer does go by fast. So, if you can take time out for yourself try. Try not to think of this as you are failing. You just came to and end with some things and new things need to come in.

And remembering the loss of you mother is separate, don't clump it all together. It can be viewed differently, it is all up to you. It sounds like you don't have others depending on you and so your free to think about what you want and need, enjoy that time in your life. Your only a failure if you give up, your not going to do that, you have more school ahead. Now you can check out other possible jobs, maybe a neat summer job that puts you around other new people.

Open Eyes