((((((((zoo))))))))))

I'm proud that you were able to make it through your procedure even though that was tough for you. Good job. I hope you had some pocket riders with you, if you want them. Know that we were all their in spirit with you.
I don't know what to tell you about your T. I just got done reading yesterday where things were going great and now they are not. I know how hard it is to have all your happiness tied up based on the last conversation you had with T. It sounds like you have had a tough day. Just rest and try to remember how you felt yesterday until your next appt. I disagree that the issues with your T are entirely your fault. I know we are responsibles for our perceptions, actions, etc. but your T has always been moving the boundaries back and forth, back and forth. I can't even keep up with it and I'm not the one living it like you are. Remember to post as you need to. I hope you can find some peace. Remember to take care of little zoo. That image still resonates with me. ((((((((zoo))))))))))))))