oh zoo. you did it, you did it. You see? The doctors, they were not after you. You are safe now. The doctors helped you, they helped you heal, they know what to do, what they did was painful but it was healing for your body, not destructive. You did right by little zoo. You took care of her, you kept her healthy, it hurt to give her this medicine but you were like her mother, saying, I know you don't like this, but I promise, I am taking care of you right now.

As far as T is concerned, who knows what is going on with her. She is not that mother inside of you, guiding and holding your little zoo. T can be quite helpful, can provide tools, can try to guide, but she is not the mother inside. That mother is you. T is the mom's coach, and someone to check in with, but the anchor? That is you.